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I can’t believe I lost 2lbs this week, WOW! I was trying to watch what I was eating and I exercised like once. Still, I have been trying to think how this weight loss could be possible and what I came up with something pretty funny. Besides, watching what I consume and the regular exercise regimen…I have found that I can achieve a little extra help on my weight loss by wearing underwear that are a little bit snugger than I’m normally used to (I don’t wear anything too constricting or uncomfortable). I know it sounds funny…lol…but it can be a lifesaver. I tend to eat less, I’m more aware of how much I eat and what I’m eating. This is great for use at home but will really help me when I go out to eat…because no matter how much I rev myself up about how healthy I need to eat at a restaurant…it is TOO EASY to get carried away…the temptation is way too much for me to handle. This way I can look good in my normal fitting clothes but have a secret weight loss weapon on the inside…lol.

I know that I’m an emotional overeater. I know that I feel like losing weight when, I can’t fit into a booth, can’t fit into certain clothes, when I look at myself in the mirror, when I go to clubs and the guys don’t look at me at all, when I just can’t keep up, when I look around & I’m the only fat person in the room and when I have health problems (trick knee). If I could carry with me all feelings that come with the problems above…I think it would fuel my will power and I wouldn’t have a problem losing weight…just random thoughts from my head……

Back again, I was doing pretty good on my weight watchers journey of losing weight and even did really well at my friend’s birthday celebration on Saturday, March 29th. Then, I sprained my knee on the dance floor and had to limp out of the club…spent the night as planned at my friend’s house. The next morning, I woke up after a horrible night of pain and worry…decided to go get a bite to eat.

To remedy the worry I slipped back into my old ways and had a big fat 1/2 lb. hamburger, a large order of fries and washed it all down with 2 HUGE glasses of sweet tea. When I finally went home, I was even more depressed about my knee…this same thing happened to me 4 years ago at a club while standing on heels and I know just know it’s because of all the weight…I just can’t do what all the skinny and fit people can do no matter how high my spirits maybe…the reality is I’m too big to do that right now. Man oh man it was depressing…so…again…unable to walk and then finally on crutches…I ate everything in sight that was bad for me.

Then, Monday I was talking to a friend on the telephone…my husband asked me to call my friend back later. He said he had to tell me something. I wondered what could be so important that I have to get off the phone and so I ended the call. My husband sat down looked at me and told me that my Mom  just called and said that “my Aunt had just passed away”. I could not believe it, immediately I broke down! In our culture we visit the family, pray with them everyday for atleast 40 days and everyone of course brings all sorts of food like in most other cultures. So, I was eating very unhealthy for about a week and ended up gaining about 2 lbs. 

But on a good note reality kicked in on Monday when I stepped on the scale, I ate healthy all of this week and ended up losing 3lbs. I really have to watch my emoitional eating and I know it. Hopefully, in the future I will be able to stop myself sooner than later if I should slip again.

It’s good to be back again!!!

The cardiologist’s diet:  If it tastes good, spit it out.  ~Author Unknown

One should eat to live, not live to eat.  ~Cicero, Rhetoricorum LV

Inside some of us is a thin person struggling to get out, but they can usually be sedated with a few pieces of chocolate cake.  ~Author Unknown,  HEHEHEHEHEHEHE

The one way to get thin is to re-establish a purpose in life.  ~Cyril Connolly, The Unquiet Grave

Stressed spelled backwards is desserts.  Coincidence?  I think not!  ~Author Unknown,  DANG I DID NOT REALIZE THAT

Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels.  ~Author Unknown

Food is like sex:  when you abstain, even the worst stuff begins to look good.  ~Beth McCollister

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst, for they are sticking to their diets.  ~Author Unknown

To lengthen your life, shorten your meals.  ~Proverb

When I buy cookies I eat just four and throw the rest away.  But first I spray them with Raid so I won’t dig them out of the garbage later.  Be careful, though, because that Raid really doesn’t taste that bad.  ~Janette Barber, HEHEHEHEHE

Man, weekends are so hard for me and have been for a long time now. I don’t know why my mind works the way it does but I always feel like it’s okay to cheat here and there on the weekends. On a good note…I no longer give up all hope when I do fall off the wagon instead, I just jump right back on and keep going. I think I might be growing up…lol…imagine that.

I am so proud of myself because I have been trying extra hard to incorporate exercise into my daily life. I’ve been dancing with my 2 year old to music videos, indian and american. I have been using the “on demand” feature on my cable to choose two 20 minute videos to do in the evenings. Late night is the worst for me because everyone’s asleep, except me…I have nothing to do and want to eat to fill in the boredom. So now I’ve started doing exercise videos instead. It’s starting to feel good outside, so I’ve been making a point of taking my toddler outside to throw the ball around, drawing with sidewalk chalk, walking, going to the playground and chasing him…lol and I’ve been having fun!

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